Spirituality.

I wonder sometimes.

I personally have quite a strong belief in God. I don't pray to him, asking for things and i try not to complain about things in my life. I don't believe we as a race are worthy of asking favors of the creator of the universe. I also don't believe in religion. On the contrary, i am quite opposed to religion most of the time.

Basically every form of religion has corrupted the pureness of faith. Religion uses peoples faith to empower greedy people. If you look through history, some of the greatest atrocities in the history of our race have been committed in the name of god by one religious faction or another. I refuse to believe that God would condone this behavior, the way people treat each other and act, because one religion or another says so.

A being capable of creating the universe and all the life in it, would have understanding and intelligence beyond anything humans can comprehend. I honestly believe that God would know who is a good person, and who is not. The people who are worthy of his love, will receive it when there time comes and those who aren't worthy wont be able to fool anybody by "converting" to religion.

But still sometimes I wonder. In some areas of my life i have been really lucky. I've got good friends, good job, my family are beautiful people. But for better or worse, I've spent a large portion of the last few years as a lonely soul. I rarely meet people that truly understand me and when i do, things never turn out the way I'd really like. After so many bad experiences, its hard for me to open up to people. It seems to me my greatest weakness is I love people who can never reflect it. If there is one feeling i would associate with my last few years, it would be frustration.