Tuesday, 25 September 2007
Friday, 14 September 2007
Tuesday, 11 September 2007
Life can be Painful.
Yeap, Sometimes life can be a real pain.
For the most part i can't complain with my lot in life. Not that I am the kind of person who dwells on there problems anyway. But occasionally something will happen that still knocks you down a few pegs, and it can be hard to get over it.
One such thing recently happened to me, even though i could see it coming. It was something that had to happen one way or another and will ultimately make me a stronger person. Thats easy to say now, i feel fairly good atm. As long as i keep my mind active and don't get bored and start brooding I am fine. I just have to keep myself busy.
Easier said then done though. Even at work, its hard to constantly find things to do. Hense me even writing this relatively pointless blog post. It's just giving me something to past time for 5minutes or so. Then I'll be back to trying to keep myself occupied.
One of my Pet annoyances atm, is people telling me "you'll find somebody great". In my experience, everybody great is either taken or not interested. I know thats a really negative way to look at things but I'd rather people were just more realistic sometimes. Maybe i'll be happy oneday and maybe i'll find somebody. But I for one am not sure of it by any means.
For the most part i can't complain with my lot in life. Not that I am the kind of person who dwells on there problems anyway. But occasionally something will happen that still knocks you down a few pegs, and it can be hard to get over it.
One such thing recently happened to me, even though i could see it coming. It was something that had to happen one way or another and will ultimately make me a stronger person. Thats easy to say now, i feel fairly good atm. As long as i keep my mind active and don't get bored and start brooding I am fine. I just have to keep myself busy.
Easier said then done though. Even at work, its hard to constantly find things to do. Hense me even writing this relatively pointless blog post. It's just giving me something to past time for 5minutes or so. Then I'll be back to trying to keep myself occupied.
One of my Pet annoyances atm, is people telling me "you'll find somebody great". In my experience, everybody great is either taken or not interested. I know thats a really negative way to look at things but I'd rather people were just more realistic sometimes. Maybe i'll be happy oneday and maybe i'll find somebody. But I for one am not sure of it by any means.
Quote of the Day
There is nothing more painful than seeing someone you love loving someone else. But there is nothing more rewarding than seeing two people you love loving each other.
- J.H. Li
Monday, 3 September 2007
Positive Thoughts...
The last couple of weeks I've been kind of down. Actually i think it goes back further then that. On the surface I've been my normal self, but under it all I've felt rather battered. Finally I emerged from this, the last few days have been much happier for me simply because this deep seeded darkness has subsided. I don't even know why, :S But I'm glad I can tell you that much. I'm used to having to put on the brave face ect, but its nice to not have to. Life should be enjoyed and lived to its fullest, and sadness makes that very difficult :P
Dancing is still going very well. Dancing 5 times a week now. I think its improving me quicker then ever, but i still have SOOOOOOO much to learn. For every inch of improvement i make i realise how much further i still have to go. But its good, it gives me something to aim for, something to aspire to. I managed to score a place for us to practice any time we like through work. Which is VERY awesome, gives us a big advantage. I've only been dancing a short time but I am really trying hard to improve, so hopefully soon me and Serena will actually start to place in some comps :)
Yesterday was really nice. I took my family to lunch at a nice restaurant. Kane and Serena also came which was really nice. Was like, links from my 'old' life and my 'new' life coming together and enjoying each others company. The fact that everybody got along so well and had a good time just made my day. Everybody at that table yesterday are the most important people in my life. Only one person was missing and she knows who she is :) . Together this awesome collection of people mean more to me then words can express. I just feel blessed to have them all in my life.
Dancing is still going very well. Dancing 5 times a week now. I think its improving me quicker then ever, but i still have SOOOOOOO much to learn. For every inch of improvement i make i realise how much further i still have to go. But its good, it gives me something to aim for, something to aspire to. I managed to score a place for us to practice any time we like through work. Which is VERY awesome, gives us a big advantage. I've only been dancing a short time but I am really trying hard to improve, so hopefully soon me and Serena will actually start to place in some comps :)
Yesterday was really nice. I took my family to lunch at a nice restaurant. Kane and Serena also came which was really nice. Was like, links from my 'old' life and my 'new' life coming together and enjoying each others company. The fact that everybody got along so well and had a good time just made my day. Everybody at that table yesterday are the most important people in my life. Only one person was missing and she knows who she is :) . Together this awesome collection of people mean more to me then words can express. I just feel blessed to have them all in my life.
Friday, 31 August 2007
Monday, 27 August 2007
A strange Day
Today was strange. For some reason I physically feel fine. Better then i have in a while to be honest. Emotionally though I feel battered. I have no idea why. There are a few things that happened over the weekend that affected me, but nothing very drastic. I dunno. I'm probably just seeing ghosts where there is nothing.
I had a very strange dream last night. I am pretty sure its told me a lot about how and why i feel the way i do. It just depends on how you interpret it. It was one of those rare dreams that despite the fact i woke up some 8-9 hrs ago i can remember the majority of it clearly. It also had a lot people in it I associate with regularly. I'm not going to describe what happened, even if i wanted too (which i dont really, was a private dream) I couldn't properly. My dreams tend to be very abstract in what physically happens with very strong emotions that run in the undercurrent. This dream was no different.
I know this blog has been largely pointless but i needed to air my thoughts. I've been telling people i am Fine the last couple of days which is not exactly the truth. I'm not sure how i feel at the moment, or even why. I feel a bit like a battered leaf in a storm. Just waiting for the next strong breeze to blow me into another calamity. I'm probably being a bit melodramatic, but who knows. Maybe i'm not being dramatic enough? Time will tell.
I had a very strange dream last night. I am pretty sure its told me a lot about how and why i feel the way i do. It just depends on how you interpret it. It was one of those rare dreams that despite the fact i woke up some 8-9 hrs ago i can remember the majority of it clearly. It also had a lot people in it I associate with regularly. I'm not going to describe what happened, even if i wanted too (which i dont really, was a private dream) I couldn't properly. My dreams tend to be very abstract in what physically happens with very strong emotions that run in the undercurrent. This dream was no different.
I know this blog has been largely pointless but i needed to air my thoughts. I've been telling people i am Fine the last couple of days which is not exactly the truth. I'm not sure how i feel at the moment, or even why. I feel a bit like a battered leaf in a storm. Just waiting for the next strong breeze to blow me into another calamity. I'm probably being a bit melodramatic, but who knows. Maybe i'm not being dramatic enough? Time will tell.
Friday, 24 August 2007
Tuesday, 21 August 2007
Quote of the Day
"Four years ago Kevin Rudd got drunk and took himself into a strip club," he said. "Four years ago John Howard, sober, took Australia into the Iraq war. I think the electorate could judge which one did the more harm."
- Bob Brown, Leader of the Australian Greens Political Party
- Bob Brown, Leader of the Australian Greens Political Party
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